Ubuntu & Fedora Power Regression Issues Confirmed; Workaround Published

Phoronix has identified the Linux power regression problems it previously noted in Linux 2.6.38 as being related to Active-State Power Management (ASPM) code for PCI Express -- and has published a workaround. The problem, which can result in low battery life with Ubuntu 11.04 and Fedora 15, have been confirmed by Tom's Hardware Guide.

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In this article they discuss how the discovery was made and also publish the fix, which is simply adding an additional line to your boot command line.

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Growing Pains

You know, I've been with Ubuntu for a long time, ever since Breezy, back when you still had to configure your own drivers, back when it was more "plug and pray" than plug and play.

 

Coming from Mandriva, I learned a lot about Linux back then when I switched to Ubuntu. I thought that once I started getting adept that was the last of my worries...

 

Boy, was I wrong.

 

Ubuntu over the years has grown to be easier and easier, so easy that I would probably put anyone on it now days. Unfortunately for me as Ubuntu has grown easier I have grown softer. And I never realized how much Ubuntu had moved away from the standard Linux installation because the changes were implemented so slowly. A new installer here, some new GUI configuration tools there. Gradually I was point and clicking more than I was using CLI.

 

The move to Fedora has been an eye opener. Once again I'm on a true bleeding edge distribution, something that Ubuntu has grown rather soft and reluctant in pursuing (and I think Unity is proof of this - Ubuntu preferred to create it's own desktop manager to risking the yet unfinished Gnome 3). Most of the configuration tools are gone and packages are installed as is with very little interference from Fedora in terms of configuration. I've been fortunate to find all my hardware worked out of the box unlike the Ubuntu days of old, but that's about the most help I've gotten.

 

You would think this would really be getting on my nerves. And I have to admit the first day or so it did really get on my nerves. I found myself once again cursing my computer like the old Mandrake/Mandriva days of old. But I still remembered what it used to be like so it wasn't long before I calmed down and just started RTFM.

 

I'm on my third day of using Fedora. My installation is configured to my liking. There's a few bugs I have to work out - like Chrome not displaying text - but I have found workarounds to them and I'm comfortable. I'm dreading the next installation but I know it will get easier over time as my memory of how to do things with the original Linux becomes fresher.

 

I really appreciate the Fedora forums, which tend to be a lot more straightforward and in depth than the Ubuntu forums were. Additionally there seems to be a wealth of information on Fedora in Google, and something I'm really enjoying is how there seems to be a Fedora package for everything (while Ubuntu's use is widespread, it's not exactly default Debian package friendly the way Fedora is default Red Hat package friendly).

 

So even though there's been some growing pains moving away from Ubuntu, ultimately I have been very happy with my choice to move to Fedora.

 

 


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How to Install Gnome 2 in Fedora 15

I keep seeing people in the Fedora 15 forums tell others that there's no way to install Gnome 2 in Fedora and you're stuck with Gnome 3 or KDE. Well that's kind of funny, because I'm running Gnome 2 in my Fedora 15 session right now. They just changed the name of the package you have to install to get it. Instead of looking for the Gnome 2 desktop package, open up terminal and type in this:

 
su

yum install compiz-gnome

 

Press enter and type in your root password. Once the install finishes log out and when you click on your username in the login screen, change the session to Gnome with Compiz. It's really that easy! :)

 

 


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Bye Ubuntu!



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It all started yesterday when I accidentally deleted the network manager along with getting rid of the XFCE desktop environment. I of course naturally thought no problem, I can install the network manager from the CD. However, once I had disabled everything but the CD in my repository list, I found that network manager disappeared from the list of installable software.

 

Ok, I thought, I will just do a non destructive upgrade. That failed in two ways. The first time I used the automated updater and instead of recognizing my home and root partitions as being separate it dumped the entire installation on my root partition. The second time I just ran the updater without reformatting the home directory and I still had issues, this time operating system issues like the global menu application being missing.

 

So I have to admit I got fed up and installed Fedora 15. It's not like this was all it took to make me ditch Ubuntu. It was actually a long time coming. It seems like Ubuntu has forgotten all about making Linux easier to use for all types of users and now focuses on just making it easy to use for new users, even if that means breaking some Linux functionalities that are part of why some people prefer to use it.  It's a shame; Ubuntu was finally getting polished enough to make it a very attractive OS thanks to implementations like Unity (which btw is a lot more flexible than Gnome 3 so hush your fussin'... Ubuntu did a good thing by replacing Gnome 3 with it IMHO).

 

Soon I will be giving a small review on Fedora 15. There's not really much to it (thanks to Gnome, which I will discuss later) but so far it seems fairly stable and very quick in comparison to most Debian/Ubuntu distributions.

 

 

 


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Lord, Help Me Please

I need to get him out of my house. For cleanliness. For order. For sanity.

 

No yelling. No screaming. No messes left uncleaned. No piles of dirty clothes. It seems like a distant dream now but it was a reality only about a year ago. He blames me for all this stuff but I want to know how I am to blame for it all if when he's not around none of this is a problem. His laziness makes me lazy. His lack of ambition makes me unambitious. His depression leaves me depressed. And him constantly being here, never leaving, never giving me a break from his presence, is driving me bonkers.

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How to Restore Ubuntu 11.04 Natty's Splash Screen

Yesterday I installed the XFCE desktop environment, mostly to see how the project has been going along over the years since my last hiatus from Linux and also to give myself a quicker alternative to Gnome (I am running a netbook, after all). I was surprised today to find myself greeted by an old problem: I now had the Xubuntu splash screen at startup instead of the Ubuntu splash screen.

 

This was a little dismaying to me, especially since this now meant anyone unfamiliar with Ubuntu that saw my computer start up would now think it was called Xubuntu.

 

So I looked for the start-up manager, which used to allow one to change their splash screen. But either Ubuntu changed that or Linux as a whole changed that because that option is no longer there.

 

I also tried installing Gnome Splash Screen, but everything was greyed out. Starting it from the terminal turned out to be not as easy as $ sudo splash-screen or anything like that, so I figured there had to be another solution...

 

I found it.

 

If you are using Ubuntu, Kubuntu, Xubuntu, or any of the other 'buntu distributions and find yourself wanting to change the splash screen back to default after installing another desktop environment, just type this in to terminal:

 

sudo update-alternatives --config default.plymouth

 

Follow the instructions on screen.

 

Now why they had to make changing the splash screen so difficult is beyond me. I know for a fact there's no way I'm going to remember that combination of commands, especially since I don't mess with the splash screens often at all. However, there you have it. Hopefully Ubuntu will change this in the not so distant future.

 


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Gadgets? No. Applets? No. Widgets? No. Indicators? Yup, Welcome to Ubuntu Natty

The Ubuntu 11.04 (Natty Narwhal) operating system introduced a different user interface, designed by Canonical, called Unity. The default indicators are nice, but many people complained that they miss their usual applets on the panel.

CPU monitors, system load indicators, bandwidth statistics, weather indicators, RSS news feeds, DropBox handlers, and many more other applets can be quite easily installed on Ubuntu 11.04.

This article will show a list of ten most used Unity indicators (panel applets), with installation instructions and screenshots. At the end of the article we will also list other indicators, less important, and where to find them.

 

Softpedia

 

I found this article quite useful, especially considering there aren't really any widgets, applets, or gadgets to speak of in Ubuntu's Unity desktop manager. The weather and multi-load indicators work great on my 11.04 Natty installation.

 



 

So if you've ever gotten frustrated with Screenlets' bugs or Conky's broken interface in Ubuntu 11.04 Natty's Unity desktop environment, this is one article you don't want to miss reading.

 

 


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Get your website noticed with optimized keywords (chosen on popularity vs. competition), backlinks (links to your website from other websites), and search engine optimized content (content that references your keywords often).

 

What's the importance of SEO?

 

Search engine optimization is becoming increasingly important in today's world where people rely more on the information they pull from search engines than they do on phone books or advertising. If you don't want to be left behind in your target market, it's time to optimize your website so search engines can find it.

 

Can I get a consultation first?

 

Of course there are a lot of businesses today that claim they offer SEO but only offer the minimal (a few unoptimized keywords thrown in here and there) or even worse nothing at all (I see it happening everyday to the websites picked up by Ken Eubanks, the web designer I work with!).  So it's not surprising that you may want a consultation on a website that you've already had built but are feeling unsure about in terms of search engine optimization. Consultations with me are 100% FREE. I will tell you exactly if and how your website can be optimized. Never will you be charged just for information about your website.

 

How much will this cost?

 

It depends on how large your website is and what types of services it needs.

 

  • Keyword optimization: $1 per keyword

  • Backlinks: $50 monthly will get you 30-50 backlinks per day


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  • SEO content: $6.50 per article up to 500 words


 

What area is this for?

 

While my focus is on beautiful Palatka, FL I also will optimize websites for anyone around the (English speaking) world. Just ask! :)

 

How can I contact you?

 

I'm glad you asked! I'm a partner with Mantra Media Group, LLC. You can contact me at:

Address: 250 Highway 17 North, Palatka, FL

Phone: 386.MANTRA.2

Email: J.Mcdaniel[at]mantramediagroup.com

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Tired of UbuntuOne memory leaks? Try SpiderOak!

I've been having problems the past few days with the new Ubuntu One update causing a huge memory leak on my MSI U100 netbook. By huge I mean taking up 1.2 gb and 4% CPU on my MSI U100's tiny 2 gb of RAM and Intel Atom duo. I finally got fed up enough yesterday to uninstall Ubuntu One, leaving myself in quite a predictament as I now had no way to backup my files online.

 

Thankfully Lxer.com came to the rescue with some suggestions on alternatives to Dropbox, which I don't particularly care to use in Ubuntu due to the lack of syncing functionality (I'll admit it, I'm lazy and see no need to do what the computer is fully capable of doing for me). Among these suggestions I found an amazing little company called SpiderOak that only charges $10 for 100 gb of data backup.

 

Curious about the low pricing, I went ahead and installed SpiderOak on my Ubuntu 11.04 Natty install (SpiderOak provides .deb files for Ubuntu so that was very easy to do, just two clicks away). Unbeknownst to me at the time I was in for a clever little surprise.

 

SpiderOak not only has the lowest prices in town, but their software also supports automatic syncing of your backup folders, just like Ubuntu One. Unlike Ubuntu One you're given full control over the syncing process so your files will be backed up at a time that is most convenient to you and not the program itself.

 

While SpiderOak's software does require you set it up to automatically start with Ubuntu, this is a very easy thing to do and something I don't mind doing just to have sync functionality. To add SpiderOak's software to your list of startup programs, just go to Startup Applications in the Unity menu, select New, and type in the following in the box labeled Command:
/usr/bin/SpiderOak

 

That's all there is to it. :) Enjoy your UbuntuOne alternative!

 

 

 

 


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Synaptic Package Manager Being Removed From Ubuntu 11.10 Oneiric Ocelot



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In an update today, Synaptic Package Manager has been removed from the Ubuntu 11.10 Oneiric Ocelot default installation, but it's still available in the repositories so you can install it via Ubuntu Software Center.

Web Upd8

 

They better add the same features to Software Center as Synaptic has, or I can imagine there being complaints. Synaptic has a lot more useful features than Software Center has so Ubuntu better get the ball running.

 

 


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An Easy How to Guide on Customizing Unity in Ubuntu 11.04

*For stability and ease of installation/use issues, I am leaving out instructions on how to utilize widgets within Unity in Ubuntu 11.04 Natty.

 

I have noticed a lot of complaints on the internet that Unity is not customizable. This is wrong. Unity is quite customizable if you just know how to customize it, and while it is not quite as customizable as some other desktop managers, it is customizable enough to create a very pleasing effect on the eye. This article will tell you how to customize Unity in Ubuntu 11.04 Natty.


 

You will need the following from the repositories in Ubuntu 11.04 Natty's Software Center:

  • Compiz Config Settings Manager

  • Ubuntu Tweak


 

Changing the Appearance

  1. Go to Ubuntu 11.04 Natty's application menu and type in Appearance. Press Enter.

  2. From here you can change the theme, fonts, and background. Choose the theme you want and then click on Customize.

  3. From here you can change the controls, colors (if the theme you chose allows it), window border, icons, and pointer.Select the items you want then click Close.

  4. Click on Backgrounds. From here you can change your background color and image. Choose the ones you want and then click on Fonts.

  5. Change to the fonts you want to use, then click Close.


 

Tweaking the Login Screen & Compiz

  1. 1. Open up CompizConfig Settings Manager by typing Tweak in the Application Menu and pressing Enter.

  2. 2. Click on Login Settings. The window that comes up will be greyed out.

  3. 3. Scroll down to the bottom of the greyed out area and click on Unlock. A password screen will come up. Type in your password and press Enter.

  4. Now you can select the icon and wallpaper you want to use with your login screen.

  5. Now click on Compiz Settings. From here you can change various Compiz settings, like snapping windows, wobbly windows, and transparent menus.

  6. Close out of Ubuntu Tweak.


 

CompizConfig Settings Manager

If you would like more special desktop effects, type Compiz in the Applications Menu and press Enter. I would like to point out a couple of things you can do in CompizConfig Settings Manager:

  1. Click on the Ubuntu Unity plugin icon on the main screen.

  2. From here you can modify the behavior of the Unity Menu bar and make the status/task bar more transparent.


Other than that, just have fun playing with Compiz! It lets you do all sorts of things with your desktop. :)

 

I hope this guide has been useful in helping you get a grip on the different things you can do to customize Unity in Ubuntu 11.04 Natty. I know it is probably overwhelming at first but just change a few things at a time if you feel you need to lessen the work a bit. I also hope that this tutorial has taught you that there is a lot that can be customized in Unity despite people's complaints. It may not be fully customizable yet but that's because it's still a young project.

 

Now I'm going to leave you with a picture of my favorite customized desktop. You can save your theme customizations by clicking Save As in the Themes menu under Appearance.

 

 


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How to Fix a Slow Wireless Connection in Ubuntu 11.04 Natty

If  after installing or upgrading to Ubuntu 11.04  you noticed that the connection is too slow when using the wifi, this is a simple solution. I have confirmed this fix works in Ubuntu 11.04 Natty. I would have never guessed that IPv6 would be what's causing the problem!

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How to Install Photoshop CS2 Under Wine in Ubuntu Natty 11.04

I have tried every tutorial in existence in Google to get CS4 to install under Wine in Ubuntu Natty 11.04 to no avail.  Either the files I need in order to install it  won't download/show errors or the program itself installs and won't start. Never allowing defeat, I decided to start downgrading until I hit the sweet spot and got Photoshop CS2 to install. Here's how I did it:

 

  1. First I added the Wine repository to my list of repositories in Ubuntu Natty 11.04. Instructions can be found here.

  2. Next I downloaded the latest Wine beta and Winetricks in Ubuntu's Software Center (you can use sudo apt-get install to do this as well if you already know the package names).

  3. I configured Wine to mimic Windows XP using the Wine Configuration utility which automatically installs with Wine.

  4. I installed all the fonts available in Winetricks by going to Select the default wineprefix > Install a font > all fonts.

  5. I got a little crazy with WineTricks and installed all the Microsoft dll files I could get to install. This was done by going to Select the default wineprefix > Install a Windows DLL or component. I also installed Internet Explorer, Windows Installer, and the various runtimes available. This takes a lot of patience as some components will not install until others are installed, and often the failure of one installation meant no others would start after it, causing me to reopen Winetricks to try again. I recommend doing these one at a time if you have the patience to reopen Winetricks that many times. Personally I didn't have the patience so I went ahead and installed 3-5 at a time if possible.

  6. Finally, I installed Photoshop CS2 without a hitch.


 

I hope this tutorial helps you in figuring out how to get Photoshop running in Wine successfully. I'm sorry I can't give you an exact list of components to install under Winetricks but by this point I was so frustrated I just installed anything I could that was produced by Microsoft and not related to games, audio, or video.

 

 


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Gimp or Photoshop?

Guess whether the photos below were edited with Gimp or Photoshop.

 

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Doudou: Linux for Children

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DoudouLinux is a Debian-based distribution targeting young children, with a goal to make computer use as simple and pleasant as possible. The project's version 1.0, code name "Gondwana". DoudouLinux provides tens of applications that suit children from 2 to 12 years old and gives them an environment as easy to use as a gaming console. Kids can learn, discover and have fun without dad and mum always watching!"

 

Unixmen

 

I am so excited to try out this distribution with my three year old son! Doudou Linux has a desktop that is incredibly easy to use for little ones. It also doesn't have a browser or any other internet related applications that could be used to get in to trouble. If you have been wanting to get your child in to Linux but have been worried that it's too complicated or dangerous for them, now is your chance to finally show them what Linux is all about!

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Gimp Plugins - WOW!

Today I took it upon myself to look at the plugins available for Gimp. All I can really say about it is WOW - there are sooo many plugins available! There's plugins that not only make the Gimp match Photoshop in its functionality but even more plugins that cause it to SURPASS Photoshop's functionality. I wish I had thought to take a look at them before, especially when my boss started complaining about Gimp not quite matching up to Photoshop in functionality. Personally I like going about things the old school way - Photoshop has changed so much over the years it confuses me quite a bit.While Gimp has different names for functions, it is still organized in a way that is simple and makes everything easy to find.

 

I was especially pleased to find out that Gimp has a background eraser. Only the brilliance of this is instead of it being an eraser function it is a brush function (Why didn't Photoshop do this?). Just select the brush function, select color erase, and make the foreground color match the background color of the picture. Voila! You now have a background eraser for Gimp.

 

I'm sorry that I love Gimp so much more than I do Photoshop. However, Photoshop gives me a lot of problems, partially due to the fact it demands so much of my system resources and partially because, let's face it, it's got bugs up the yin yang. Right now I can't even save images in CS5 so I had to downgrade to CS4. Photoshop just isn't the great image manipulation program it used to be back in the days of 7. I watch my boss every day struggle with Photoshop's slow processing and buggy behavior. He doesn't notice it I'm sure but I do. :( At least with Gimp if something goes wrong 90% of the time it's because I didn't realize there was a setting somewhere I had to change to get the desired effect.

 

I know, I know, Photoshop is pretty and Gimp is well... not pretty. But does the looks of your software determine how good it actually is? I'm going to say NO.

 

So don't criticize Gimp until you've given it a good solid chance. That means downloading the plugins and brushes you need because unlike Photoshop Gimp just comes with what you absolutely need and expects you to build on that to make it what you want (just like most Linux software, which is part of what I love so much about it - it's like getting a box of Legos to assemble a car with rather than getting a pre-assembled car straight out of the box so you can make the car look however you want it to look). The Gimp is meant to be the beginning of a photo manipulation program, not all of it.

 

So give Gimp a shot. You may actually find yourself dare I say liking it. Unlike Photoshop it's free and it's developed by people who have the same love for editing photos that you do.

 


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The Gimp's Magic

These are some photos I edited using The Gimp (I don't claim to be a professional).

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Ubuntu + Usability = FAIL



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Lately there has  been some uproar about the 'dumbing down of interfaces'..KDE4 didn't offer the settings 3 did, Gnome dumbs everything down, and maybe Apple did the same the last decade. I couldn't tell because I never touch anything Apple, and the only time I did the software crashed and all this dumbing down for the sake of usability! However in my opinion, they are wrong. They confuse 'usability' with 'approachability'. Which leads to software which many times is not user friendly.

 

LXer

 

 


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Ubuntu Getting Hybrid ISO Support

One feature that Fedora, openSUSE, MeeGo. and many other Linux distributions share is that their CD ISOs are hybrids. This means that the same CD ISO can be copied directly to a USB storage device without needing to rely on any external utilities. While Ubuntu ISOs don't support this feature, they do have an easy-to-use start-up disk creator that takes care of this task.

 

That's about to change.

 

The daily ISOs for the Ubuntu development cycle and all official Ubuntu releases from now on will be packaged in hybrid ISOs. Now if you want to transfer a Ubuntu ISO to a USB drive you don't need to rely on Ubuntu's USB creator or any third party program but instead can directly copy the contents to a USB drive using the dd command.
Ubuntu and Debian may be late to the ball game, but it's better to be late than never show up, isn't it?

 

 


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How Ubuntu Can Improve Unity

With Natty Narwhal, Ubuntu underwent a major transformation. Gone was the plain and simple GNOME UI, and in came the shell interface with shiny new features. Though Canonical had high hopes from this release, the response Natty received was hugely disappointing. Many users felt that the release was a half-baked one with too many confusing features. However, a few good features did shine through leaving some users thoroughly impressed by Unity. Good or bad, Unity in its current avatar has plenty of room left for improvement. So, here are a few things we think can make Unity a better interface.

 

TechLaze

 

I think this is an article that every Ubuntu 11.04 user can benefit from reading. This is perhaps the best and most comprehensive list of issues in Ubuntu that I have ever came across. Some of the issues listed are:

 

  • A better Dash - I couldn't agree more with this. The dash in Ubuntu 11.04 has caused so many people so much grief. It's not very customizable and there's no way to turn autohide off.

  • Make launcher better - If you don't know the exact name of what you're looking for it can be pretty hard to find in the launcher menu, mostly because it's so poorly organized.

  • Please Introduce yourself - A good one that I hadn't even thought of. Ubuntu should have some form of user introduction to the operating system.

  • Better Global Menu - Some apps just don't work with it.

  • Make Quicklists Zeitgeist integrated - This seems like a simple enough request, although I don't really see where it would matter so much to Windows users except the fact they're used to Windows Explorer being wrapped in to one process.


 

Please take the time out to finish reading the list if you are a Ubuntu user. Maybe you can implement some of the changes that are needed! Good luck & happy computing! :)

 

 


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How to Fix Ubuntu 11.04 When It Won't Boot After Restart

Recently, I had to install Ubuntu 11.04 in a Core 2 Duo Lenovo laptop with Intel Mobile 4 Series Chipset. I had previously installed Ubuntu 10.10 in it and it worked flawlessly. But that was not the case when I installed the latest Ubuntu. Though installation went smooth, Ubuntu 11.04 just won't boot after restart and instead a blank screen appears with a blinking cursor. After some amount of browsing, I think I have just found out how to fix the blank screen issue.

 

Fix for 'Ubuntu 11.04 Won't Boot/Shows Blank Screen After Restart' Issue

 
After installing Ubuntu 11.04 Natty Narwhal in a laptop with Intel Mobile 4 Series chipset, the laptop won't boot after restart and shows a blank screen with blinking cursor instead. The following steps solved the issue for me.









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How to Get Adobe Flash Player 10 Working With Webcam in Ubuntu 11.04

I haven't been able to figure out how to get my webcam working with Adobe Flash Player 10 in Ubuntu 11.04 Natty. For some reason the permissions window never comes up and the settings menu is greyed out. I tried to go to global settings but the link there doesn't work either. I know the driver is working because it works in other applications that utilize my webcam. From what I've seen, I'm not the only one having this issue.

 

Today I found the answer - and it's a lot easier than you may think!

 

1. Go at least once to the website you want to use your webcam on and try to use it.

2. Follow this link.

3. Select the website you want to use with your webcam from the list of websites.

4. Select the bullet next to "Always allow".

 

That's all there is to it! Now you can use your webcam! :)

 

If this tutorial worked for you please help support this site's hosting by clicking on an ad. Thank you! :)


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Lacerated Finger

So I cut my right ring finger to the bone and sliced my right middle finger tip with a filet knife. The hospital stitched my right ring finger (7 stitches!) and I have to have surgery done Monday to repair the tendons and nerves that were damaged. It didn't hurt nearly as much when it happened as it did that night before I got my pain medication. Fortunately the pain medication they gave me is doing its job.

 

Being laid up like this sucks. I have to keep the bandaging and wounds dry and avoid using the injured fingers. I can no longer bathe myself, brush my hair, or fix my food. I can't even care for Brennan or clean the house.

 

I keep reminding myself this is temporary.

 


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Quitting Smoking...

It's been so long since I started smoking (16) that I don't even remember what it feels like to not smoke. Like, what exactly did I do with my extra time when I didn't smoke? I can't even remember. My hands feel so strange and empty. I know this is the easiest part to overcome though so long as I keep my determination to quit. The nicotine withdrawal is a little harder, but thankfully that does not come until later thanks to the use of nicotine gum. I have found that strangely enough, knitting helps a lot with the restless hands, LOL.

 

I find myself asking  myself why I want a cigarette so badly. Sometimes it's something simple, like nicotine withdrawal. Other times it's something a bit more difficult to handle, like stress or anxiety. Yet other times I find myself unable to come up with any explanation at all. I blame this on the oral addiction aspects more than anything else.

 

What do I mean by "oral addiction"? Well, I was one of those kids that sucked my finger for a long time, longer than I should have. Later on even though I quit I continued another oral habit: biting my nails. When I got older it transferred over in to smoking. I don't know why I have an oral addiction - maybe it was the fact my mother had to stop breast feeding early. I don't know.

 

I do know however that has been the absolute hardest aspect of quitting smoking so far. Nicotine gum helps a lot, a lot more than the patch did when I tried to quit smoking via its usage.

 

Anyways, hopefully this time I will be successful. I have four huge boxes of nicotine gum so there's really no reason why I shouldn't be successful this time as long as I keep trying and don't give up.

 


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My Cyberbully

I'm having issues with my mother in law cyberbullying me. She says the most hurtful things on my Facebook, and it seems like she has a million Facebook accounts under different pseudonyms. And poor David is caught in the middle of it all. He's the one that watches me rage and cry and try to understand why in the world she says such hateful, spiteful things to me. Why on earth this woman insists on stalking me like some sort of crazed pervert. I say nothing to her and I avoid her as much as possible yet she still gets drunk and decides to pick on me. The worst part is her son doesn't even talk to her about anything because she's like this but she think she knows everything that goes on in our relationship anyways. She alienates her entire family in this fashion because she bullies every last one of them as well.

 

I'm trying to give it all to God but that's a lot of giving to do as you can see by that last paragraph, LOL.


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