>These are the reasons why I love photography



Ethereal visions


Happy old houses


Priceless moments


Sunshine-y fun days


Happy moments


Sub-tropic paradise?


And of course, chopping it all up!


>Your light continues to grow brighter


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There’s a dream I wish I could remember because I think God was trying to explain my system to me.

But even though I don’t remember the dream, today I am waking up with a new kind of insight on what “magic” is for me now.

It’s spiritual warfare. The Church has misled everyone on this! Making them think they can’t be touched by demons as long as they are good Christians. Demons don’t care. They’re out to snatch as many people as they can.

And there are more lies, but I don’t really feel like listing them all. I do want to say this though.

This is a very real spiritual battle going on in this world. One that cannot be seen with the naked physical eye but can be seen with what many New Agers refer to as the “third eye” and what the rest of the world calls “imagination”. Neither of their concepts of this world is correct. It’s the spiritual world. Period. Nothing more, nothing less. It’s a world inside but it’s a world that has effect on the outside as well.

And the Antichrist isn’t a person. It’s an attitude, a pattern of thought, the opposition to the Light of the Holy Spirit. One that a certain ex of mine displays very well. But he’s freaking kidding himself on creating “the” Antichrist and that is eventually going to come back and bite him in the butt when he realizes the most he’s ever going to manage to do is really screw up his own son. *sighs* I just hope that child gains some concept of God from his mother, and I hope his mother actually has a real concept of God to give to him and not the Church’s concept of God which lulls everyone to sleep and teaches them virtually nothing about how to find Christ “inside”.

And just… right now I want to say a prayer. Right here on my blog. If you agree, you can say amen and it will become your prayer as well.

Dear Jesus Christ, Lord over Heaven and Earth, thank you so much for the blessings you have given us in the form of your Holy Spirit which educates us and shines your light seven times brighter than day on the path we should take to reach you. I also thank you for giving me a soul with which to think and feel, and a body with which to move about in, and a spirit that is so bright it can connect with yours. I pray dear Lord that you will send forth these blessings on others, so that they may also come in to redemption and be saved by your forever loving and forgiving grace that you provided for us all. I know that Satan and his angels are all trying very hard to misguide us and lead us in to their darkness, and I pray dear Lord that through your Holy Spirit you will guide us away from their illusions and tricks and show us the real path, the real Light, the Light that comes from you. Amen.




pictures Well, at least there’s things like Picasa to play around with. ;)


>considering a change in major again



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I think I am almost ready to really start shining myself.

But I still wait. Right now I’m reading The Bondage Breaker by Neil T. Anderson, recommended to me by a special friend. It’s quite a bit to swallow, so I’m having to take it slow. But at the same time I’m feeling that big pull that I have felt before more than ever – the urge to change my major to Christian psychology. And check out the fortune I got in a fortune cookie today:

“Look for the dream that keeps coming back. It is your destiny.”


Anyways, things have been looking up more and more a little by little. I’ve returned to ghost writing again and I am starting to make a little pull off that now, and I also now have an inventory of hair care products to sell. Right now I know I cannot deal with returning to college. I need some time to live a little bit before I return to mounds of assigned chapters to read and tricky exams to take. Not to mention ditching my major will involve also ditching a year’s worth of work. But if it really is God’s calling, I will follow it.

I’ve seen the link. It’s so easy and so blatant. Psychology drops off at the super ego. It understands soul and body but does not really understand spirit. And Christian principles of psychology can actually be applied to almost any culture. The Shining Man with Hurt Hands actually proves that factor.

There’s not really many cases of truly crazy people IMHO. Most of the “crazies” out there have been grossly sinned against by others and/or may even have demonic influences. It’s not very hard to help them break through these barriers. It just takes instilling faith in God’s power in the person. And yah, I know any counselor out there is probably going to be rolling their eyes over me saying this is easy to do. But one must remember that it is easy to do for someone like me because I have already been there and I speak “the special language”.

Ego states. Transactional Analysis. I want to go there.


>Yup, still an XP fan and probably always will be

Windows XP

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As much as I like Windows 7, I must say I am still the most comfortable and happy with Windows XP on my MSI Wind U100. Oddly enough my big, powerful HP Pavillion DV7-1280US has ended up being a server and stereo system for my bedroom than anything else. I can definitely now see why netbooks are so popular. They're small, easy and simple and they do just what you want your laptop to do; nothing more and nothing less. And I'm not exactly crazy about Windows 7 Starter vs. Windows XP on a netbook. Maybe Windows 7 is still just too new to be that stable or compatible, but yes, there are enough issues with getting software to work on Windows 7 to make me not particularly fond of using it. Not to mention those icons get pretty annoying once you have several different pages open under the same program (like Word).

It will be a sad day indeed once Microsoft cuts off support for XP completely.


>American Violet

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I am watching American Violet right now.

It’s making huge changes in my understanding of what’s wrong with this town.


>In Laws



I could almost swear that I have the absolute worst mother-in-law in the world.

What kind of person abuses people then tells them they “need to get their act together” because they run away from that abuse? Not to mention – and I really laughed my butt off on this one – this woman actually thinks I want to go to her house in the first place and that banning me from it is going to do me some great punishment.

Talk about denial!

Regardless, I will continue to pray that she finds Christ inside. I know He’s in there somewhere trying to get her attention. But He did give us free will, and I will never understand why some choose to reject Him for the sins of the world (I’ve spent a good majority of my life looking for Him and Him alone like I am prone to assume most people do).

However, that’s no reason to expose myself nor my son to the demonic forces at work in that house. She can try all she wants to, but she is not going to divide or break what God has put together.What God has put together, let no (wo)man take apart. Amen.

And if you’re reading this dear mother-in-law, there’s a great church across the street from the college. You probably know it as the mayor’s church. And yah, he’s “colored” like me. Got a problem with that? ;)


>Welcome to my “secret garden”


 IMAG0001 I have finally got my starter formulas perfected.

Welcome to “Jonquil’s Secret Garden”, a place where the products are all natural with no fillers and reduce the amount of time you spend in the bathroom.

Fruity Clean – A sulfate and detergent free hair cleanser that cleanses your hair without drying it out. Great for dandruff/itchy scalp, too, as are all the hair care products! :) Ph of this product is 1.

Herb ‘n’ Butter Shake – A rich conditioner that moisturizes, nourishes, and protects hair. No leave in products necessary. Just style and go! Ph of this product is 5.

Coconut Tea Refresh – A lightweight leave in conditioner and detangler that is also great for giving hair a little “pick me up” through out the day that defrizzes and redefines hair. Also a great overnight hair-softening treatment for straight to curly fine to medium textured hair. Ph of this product is 7.

All of these products are priced reasonably at $3.50 for a 2 oz. bottle or $10 for the whole set. Just so you know how long 2 oz. lasts, a bottle of the 2 oz. conditioner lasts my family of three people 2-3 weeks. The products are also well suited for all hair types, from straight and fine to kinky and coarse.  The conditioner makes a great addition to “no poo” regimens, and the shampoo is great for weekly stripping.

So go check out The Crazy Curl store and pick up some of your own “secret weapons”. :)


>A whole, a creation of God Himself


The Kingdom of God is here on Earth, inside every true “Christian”. I use that term so lightly now because I have come to realize that the universal truth goes right over the heads of almost every religion and belief system currently available en mass on Earth at the moment. “Christianity” is the common term because it’s the closest you can get, but God is in so very much more than just a book.

I remembered, just now, making that proclamation when I was 5 years old. I think I was laughed at at the time. But I’m an adult now, and I don’t care if anyone laughs at these kinds of ideas now. I know I’m not the only one saying them and I know from personal experience that this is truth.

The real, honest to God truth.

LOL, you know, I will never be perfect. But I’m ok with that now and God’s always been ok with it. It’s been other people that have not been ok with it, and they’ve always been the type of people that would point out a straw in your eye when they have a rafter in their own eye. It’s hard to believe that at various points in my life I have placed those people’s voices over the voice of God. But then again it just goes to show me how the Devil really works. It’s not nearly as much through terrorizing people with demons as it is terrorizing people with God through other people just so that person becomes so very lost they cannot find the Light of the Holy Spirit inside themselves any more.

That light is so clear to children and so distant to many adults it is saddening. Especially when those adults profess to be Christian and Christ himself instructed us to be as children in our faith.

I have died Christ’s death and been reborn. I have been the Phoenix for so long I never realized there would be an end to those rebirths, but I think I’m finally reaching that end. There’s a lot of trauma still to work through, but at least I can work through it as a whole person and not a scrambled mess of separated personalities.

It just took three good Christians to finally seal things up for me. Plus myself. Four. You know what three and four means.

Yes, I am quite heavy in to Biblical numerology. You can always seem to find it in God’s work.



>A new challenge.

I will be gone for a while. Do not worry; I rest in His hands now. I will be back in a few weeks.


>Game over.