There's a new show (well, not exactly new per se - it's in its third season) that I stumbled upon thanks to the recommendation of one of my classmates. Like Penn & Teller's Bullshit, this show tackles controversial subjects such as immigration, abortion, new age living, and atheism. Only this does it with a twist - forcing people with opposing viewpoints to live with controversial matter for 30 days. For example, the immigration episode had a Minute Man (a common citizen that helps patrol the U.S. borders to Mexico) live with a family of illegal immigrants for 30 days. Also unlike Penn & Teller, the show makes no conclusions for you and gives an unbiased view of both sides of the controversial material. Some people leave the situation changed, and others leave unchanged. The show itself has proven to be an eye opener for me on quite a few issues. If you're interested, you can check it out here.
This is my inspiration. This is what tells me life is beautiful and so much more than cars, or houses, or money. I just don't understand why other people don't feel this way. Are they missing this kind of inspiration? I can only assume that they are. They seem so unhappy, so determined to destroy, so obsessed with material gain. It's confusing for me some times. I doubt myself. But then I look at this face and I know, without a doubt, this is where it's at. I have a husband that loves, supports, encourages, believes in, and trusts me. I have a son that shows me every day the beauty in life, the purest kind of love one can get, and the deepest sense of satisfaction and accomplishment I've ever had. Those that would argue I was better off with George don't know what it's like to have this kind of happiness. Those that would argue my husband is worthless because he's unemployed don't know what it's like to have this kind of happiness. The sad part is that as long as they see things this way they never will even have a clue. It's sad because I don't think that this kind of happiness can be achieved through any other means but understanding that life is beautiful, appreciating it, and respecting it. It's even more beautiful when you're around others that appreciate and respect it as much as you do.
That's what I have. If that's wrong, you can go ahead and think so.
Right now I am having a ridiculously hard time getting across to my Cultural Diversity (ETH125) instructor that race isn't talked about in this community, especially by our community leaders. That's not to say there are no racial issues here but that they are simply not discussed. Racial slurs are slung behind closed doors and the community itself is split down the middle - whites living on one side, blacks living on the other side, with both of their numbers being proportionately the same. There are no civil rights activists, either, unless you want to consider the KKK that marches in front of the courthouse once a year recruiting "civil rights activists", ha.
On top of that this instructor has seemed to take offense to my identification as someone as mixed race. I guess I'm just supposed to identify myself as black...? One look at me though and you can see how ridiculous that kind of identification would be. I identify myself as mixed because well, I LOOK mixed and I AM mixed. I don't see what's wrong with identifying yourself for what and who you are. I also must admit that I have felt discriminated against in this class because out of all the minorities discussed not a peep is made about those of mixed race, when people of mixed race certainly qualify as a minority. They're small in numbers, their needs aren't addressed by society, their very existence is rarely addressed by society, and they're discriminated against not only by other races but by the very races that make up their racial background.
Why must we fall through the cracks even when it comes to discussing the people that fall through the cracks?
I burnt the roof of my mouth on a hot slice last night. Some skin peeled off and now I have a nasty blister on the roof of my mouth. Owww.
This is actually the very first full body picture I've dared to take since Brennan was born, lol. Now it seems pretty silly... I don't look half as bad as I thought. If anything I actually look better thanks to all that muscle tone! Lugging a 20 pound baby around seems to have that effect, lol.
I finally got in to see the psych about the problems I was having with the Prozac and Abilify that my doc prescribed me (mainly zombification). He took me off both of them and now has me on Depakote. So far I'm liking it better than anything I've taken to date - unlike everything else I've tried it keeps me calm and feeling "normal" without any hard to live with side effects (such as the oh too common tremors). The only problem so far is I'm having trouble sleeping on it, which is kind of odd considering sleepiness is supposed to be one of the side effects. I'm also still having trouble getting going during the day, which may be either the Depakote or an indication that the depression hasn't completely subsided. I'm not really sure which.
I've almost completed Brennan's new diaper stash, with only a few more diapers to go. I'm thinking about selling them after that as I don't really want to stop sewing them. It's became an addiction for me, lol. The only thing is I'm not really sure if my sewing skills are good enough yet to warrant selling my wares. I figure I might be best off buying some WAHM diapers first for comparison's sake before I start to move any further towards selling my own.
When Corey Wynsma's wife got laid off a few months ago from her graphic design job, the couple did an inventory of their household budget.
Cable TV seemed like an obvious luxury. So the couple, who live in Grand Rapids, Michigan, canceled their cable service and found another way to keep up with their favorite shows: on the Internet.
"We were already consuming a good portion of content online, and a quick survey of media sites allowed us to determine if those shows we were most interested in watching could be found online," Corey Wynsma said. "In almost each case, the answer was yes."
Rick Wampler, a technician for Cirque du Soleil in Orlando, Florida, came to the same realization when he dropped his cable subscription three months ago. Cost was a major factor, and Wampler wanted more control over the services he was paying for, he said.
As more Americans get used to watching video on their computers, more Web sites are popping up to offer free movies and TV shows. Consumers are taking advantage of this to eliminate cable or satellite TV and integrate their home entertainment with the Web. And online video viewership is skyrocketing.
I have to admit that I've been watching most of my shows online for a while. It's nice to have your shows on your demand rather than on the network's demand. However, internet TV has not replaced cable for me, and I don't think it's going to in its current form. If you're addicted to a certain TV show (my personal addictions are Ghost Hunters and Heroes), chances are you're not going to wait for it to pop up online, which can often take anywhere from 24 hours to several days. Additionally, online shows are often poor quality in comparison to what you get on your TV set. And unless you happen to have TV out on a laptop, chances are you're watching these shows on a much smaller screen in a more uncomfortable spot in your house than you would if you were watching them on TV. In order for internet TV to compete, it's going to have to:
- premiere at the same time as TV shows (or, even better, earlier!)
- produce the same quality or close to same quality picture as TV shows
- be easily viewed on a big screen without extra equipment and little know how
With the way the networks hang on to old technology like an old band t-shirt, I don't think we can expect them to adopt these strategies any time soon. They're making headway by finally making many shows available online though, so maybe in the next couple of years we'll see some more changes. I wouldn't hold my breath if I were you, though.
The new domain is up and working. Welcome to no-manifesto.net! :)
It turns out David wasn't too crazy about having to stuff pockets, so I promised him I would start making AIOs and fitteds now. I don't think it turned out too badly for my first shot. I used Rita's Rump Pocket pattern and sewed a prefold in to the inner layer of the diaper, then turned and top stitched the pocket.
I'm thinking about adding elastic to the back... still debating on that one though as I have found it really doesn't make much of a difference other than just generally making the diaper look nicer. I learned the hard way with my pockets that top stitching, while making the diaper look nicer, also makes the diaper's fit less secure, so I've decided to leave it out on my diapers (except on the pocket part, where it's necessary).
Oh, I almost forgot to tell you....
C.I.S. is now offering child safety monitoring services to the public! :)
Right now I have two friends that are both split between dating two people. Their situations are different yet they hold one common thread - they find themselves wishing they could combine two people in to one person, because they find the qualities they want in both people. Because of this they find themselves hanging between the two, struggling to make a decision and pick one.
Last night one of these friends asked me how to know which one to pick. I told him the answer is simple but doing it is difficult. The answer is neither.
As I told my friend, "When it happens, you just know it. There's no doubt, no questioning, nothing. You're happy to be with that one person and that's it. You never look back."
There are a lot of things that are required of a successful relationship. Respect, understanding, nurturing, good communication, commitment. Without these no relationship is going to survive, at least not in a way that leaves both people involved happy. But sometimes I think we get so wrapped up in those requirements that we forget the greatest requirement of all - love. It can't exist without the others and the others can't exist without it. It can't be created and it can't be destroyed. Unlike the others, it can't be developed, either... it is either there or it's not. If it's not, and that's what you're looking for, then you are simply wasting your time by being with someone that you don't share it with.
When it's there, you know it. You can't imagine yourself being with anyone else, and you wonder why you wasted your time with anyone else. There's no questioning of who you should be with, because you know you belong right where you are. You feel at home... you feel happy... you feel fulfilled. On top of that, nothing at all can seem to separate you. That's how you know which person to choose. It's a non-choice. It just happens.
I don't say this out of mere thought, but out of experience. Until David came along, I was lost. I couldn't understand why none of my relationships ever seemed to work... I asked time and time again what I was doing wrong, whether or not my expectations were just set too high, what I could do to make things better. I wasn't doing anything wrong... my expectations weren't set too high... and there was nothing I could do to make things better. I just wasn't with the right person.
My point is this - stop worrying about who you're supposed to be with. When the right person comes along, you will know it. Until then, stop trying to rush things. They will all happen in their own time. :)